A wholesome day for celebration. Leaving the past behind and start the new year feeling...well, it's all new. The past is over, it's a new moment in life. People love the feeling of starting over. Of a new chance. A new beginning.
But I don't feel like celebrating. It just so happens, a good friend of mine died last-night.
It's hard to be cheerful right now, and even more so, to want to move on so quickly... as if I wanted to forget what happen the last day of 2011 is/was unfair to his memory.
Definitely, is one of the worse years of my life. And I am glad is ending... but...then I wondered to myself, had he died the 1st day of 2012, would I have look at the rest of 2012 in gloom? Would I see it as the year he died and be unable to get over it?
And I answered to myself yes.. I would have!!... and I REALIZED instantly how stupid it is to or would have been to do so.
I realize, my friend would have wanted me to think differently about life, to live with more hope and joy, than dwelling on the bad sides of it. And to move on, or at least, start moving on.
Boy, he was such a serious guy at first, and always kinda quiet. To the point you couldn't read him. But I honestly can't tell you how much he made me feel "welcomed" when even 'closer friends' didn't and/or never had.
I did spent a while thinking about this feeling.
And so, I decided in honor of his legacy, I am truly going to welcome the new year with warming love, quietly, but present love. I'll be remembering my friend and at the same time, hoping I meet more people like him, that embraced others regardless of who they were, where they came from, or where they were planning to go.
Here is to the new year, regardless of where is planning to go.
CHEERS
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